This week I left my job to be a stay at home/work from home/self-employed/freelance mum. That’s a mouthful! As you can probably tell, I’m not really sure what my ‘new life’ is going to look like yet, but this week has bought all kinds of mixed emotions so I wanted to throw them all out in a blog post, just in case any of you lovely people are on maternity leave/going back to work/are working and looking for a change.
If you want to know some context as to why I quit my job, I did a little life update here on the blog and on my channel as well, so I won’t go too much into that in this post. What I really want to talk about is my somewhat split personality.
My parents are completely different. My mum is quite career focused; she is an extremely hard worker, loves a routine, and can easily get herself into a tither if that routine changes (I’m sure she won’t mind me saying that, seeing as I’m exactly the same!) My dad, on the other hand, whilst also being career focused and an extremely hard worker, he has a kind of ‘wild side’ that craves adventure and spontaneity. Now this is where my personality lies, somewhere between the two. My eldest brother is pretty much a duplicate of our mum. My other brother is pretty much a duplicate of our dad. And I’m somewhere in the middle. I have a side to me that loves routine, structure, safety, organisation – and I’ll be honest, that’s the side that wins most of my decisions. However, I also have a side that craves adventure, risk taking, going outside of my comfort zone. And this side has brought me to the place I find myself in today.
First time mum. No fixed ‘salary’. No ‘9-5 safe routine’. It’s scary! And one of the most prominent emotions I have felt since making this decision is fear. Not going to lie, there has been a significant part of me this week that has been tempted to walk back into my boss’ office and retract my resignation!
But I stopped myself.
Because the part of me that needs something ‘more’ is having a bloody field day. My heart is so happy at the thought of being able to spend all of my time with Lawson. I am so excited about that fact that I will now be able to pour all of my energy into things that I am passionate about; building my blog and YouTube channel, creating a new business (more on that soon!) It just all really excites me! As long as I don’t think about it too much…
I now find that all the super cheesy motivational quotes on Pinterest that used to annoy me, actually apply to me and I find myself shouting ‘yassssss’ at the laptop more often than should be allowed. I feel like something great is about to begin.
I’d love to know if you’ve ever made a decision that’s taken you outside your comfort zone – chat to me down in the comments, I wanna hear some stories! And as always, if you want to follow me on this new adventure, make sure you’re subbed to my channel, following Instagram/Twitter etc etc (you know the drill), this is where I’ll be updating you all!
Thanks for your continued support – you’re all amazing!